Un Slumping

Is that a word? Oh well, if it is great! If it's not maybe I should call Webster's. Anyway, things are progressing. Of course not at my pace but at God's pace. I'm coming to terms with the changes going on in my family. Don't get me wrong.... school does have it's advantages but I had my heart set on homeschooling until the kids were ready. Well, ready or not here they go! I think that they will do fine. I worked really hard on getting a strong biblical and moral foundation set for them so now that they will be in school is the time to test it. As much as I humanly can I will be all up in those schools checking their work and activities.

All I know is that the more involved they are the less opportunities for trouble there are.

My girls will be in middle school aren't they so beautiful? Or is that the momma in me talking?

Just wish one would smile more....cranky cranky

My oldest son will be going to the local grammar school where he was once before so at least he'll know some people.

They are growing up so fast

On to knitting news. I have finally finished the first mitten. The one I was so worried about all the lump and bumps and uglies. Well, much like God has done in my life, I was able to take something that looked like a hot mess and make it beautiful. Of course God's ways are always best because when we believe in Him and His Son all struggle and strife are but momentary because He is forever!

I finished a special project I called the p-town scarf. Pattern to come. I used nature wool that I found in my stash which for the life of me I cannot remember the colorway. But the golds and greens remind me of Garret Mountain in the fall so I called it the P-town scarf in honor of the city I grew up in Paterson, Nj. Now Paterson has a well deserved rep for being a little ghetto...ok alot of ghetto but in even these places there is beauty to be found, in the friends you grew up with, in your family who lived around you, in the changes of the season, the first snow, the little violet and white flowers growing all over a pile of rubble turning it into a thing of beauty, the loyalty developed in time of adversity. Proverbs 17:17. That is the Paterson I remember. So P-town, although I no longer live there, I honor you with a scarf designed for your beauty.

Pattern isn't written officially yet. Once I figure it out properly I'll post.

Slump

I am in a slump. A spiritual slump, a familial slump and a spiritual slump. I can't seem to get my act together in any other area of my life except work. Even that I feel I could be doing way better. That mitten that I'm knitting now is representing a hot mess with all kinds of lumps and bumps that really should not be there. And don't even get me started with the decreases. If I were to knit the chart up exactly the way it's written then the mitten would have been waaaaay to long. So I skipped a few rows to get to the decreases.

I also am in a designing slump. I have such great ideas. I've even sketched them out but I can't get the swatches to behave. So, because I litterally couldn't get to it until this Wednesday and only for a few minutes at a time I'll be missing out on submitting my designs to KnitScene. Deadline is Monday and I just can't seem to get my act together.

Right now my home is on a roller coater and unfortunately my kids are paying the price. Because of undisclosed reasons, they'll be going to school suddenly after 3 years of home schooling. The week to come is when they will be starting. This makes me so sad. I had commited myself to educating them but because of some serious financial trouble I had to go back to work so my husband and I made an arrangment where my mom would homeschool them 3 days a week and my husband and I the other two days. Unfortunately my mom has found herself in the position where this arrangement was not working out for her so here we go.

At this point I need to leave it all in God's hands. I feel like I have my back against the wall and I have failed my family. I also feel like I am whining so I'll stop now. Thanks for reading...this is not normal content for this blog.....just a vent.