I am in a slump. A spiritual slump, a familial slump and a spiritual slump. I can't seem to get my act together in any other area of my life except work. Even that I feel I could be doing way better. That mitten that I'm knitting now is representing a hot mess with all kinds of lumps and bumps that really should not be there. And don't even get me started with the decreases. If I were to knit the chart up exactly the way it's written then the mitten would have been waaaaay to long. So I skipped a few rows to get to the decreases.
I also am in a designing slump. I have such great ideas. I've even sketched them out but I can't get the swatches to behave. So, because I litterally couldn't get to it until this Wednesday and only for a few minutes at a time I'll be missing out on submitting my designs to KnitScene. Deadline is Monday and I just can't seem to get my act together.
Right now my home is on a roller coater and unfortunately my kids are paying the price. Because of undisclosed reasons, they'll be going to school suddenly after 3 years of home schooling. The week to come is when they will be starting. This makes me so sad. I had commited myself to educating them but because of some serious financial trouble I had to go back to work so my husband and I made an arrangment where my mom would homeschool them 3 days a week and my husband and I the other two days. Unfortunately my mom has found herself in the position where this arrangement was not working out for her so here we go.
At this point I need to leave it all in God's hands. I feel like I have my back against the wall and I have failed my family. I also feel like I am whining so I'll stop now. Thanks for reading...this is not normal content for this blog.....just a vent.
About Me
- Luanda
- I grew up in NJ but spent lots and lots of time in Puerto Rico with family while growing up. I have 3 wonderful children. I love my God, I love my family and I love my church...God is good!
Spiral Mitts Pattern for Mittens and Fingerless Mitts $5.00
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3 comments:
I only met you once, but I know you have not failed these children. What you are doing is hard, and it's obvious you love them more than anything--and that your role as their parent is of paramount importance to you. Whatever happens, they will have that love and all the powerful examples you most certainly set for them--as a woman balancing work outside the home, your own interests and identity, the responsibilities of a wife and mother, and the ongoing education of one who chooses to walk with the Lord. I would just encourage you to continue to pour out your concerns to Him, and know that He never lets you go--not for one second. Know that He will not give you a burden you cannot bear with His strength, and there is nothing He can't handle!
Wow. I can't tell you how encouraging that was. Thank you
Hey there, I think you are being very hard on yourself. It is obvious to me you love your children so much and do so much for them.
I hope you are feeling a little better now and venting helped you move on upwards and onwards.
I understand how you feel though, being a caring parent is tough but you have the strength.
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